I'm still responsible, just on account of being the leader. I should have had a better plan. [He paused for a moment, contemplative. He felt responsible as the leader, and moreover as their friend, if grudgingly. It was one of those instances where he was certain he was realizing what he had only after it was gone, and it made him so angry with himself and the situation that he honestly felt a little sick. He continued his train of thought before Nepeta could tell him it wasn't his fault.] And that doesn't change the fact that Equius was our best bet, but it still means I sent a troll to his death. I think I knew that even then.