John's room [Action // closed log]

[thewindything.livejournal.com]

[Well, the carnival was cool and all but John didn't really feel up to it so he was only sparcely there for a few minutes. Homecoming was a definite no. Yeah, school dances? Not going to be a thing. Specially not right now when everyone else would probably pick up on his mood.

Which would be terrible. He did not want anyone getting worried or something over him. So, for now he was just going to stay in his room and worry about his homework. Homework which sucked no matter what universe you were trapped in.

There was so much memorizing in this garden code class bluh.]

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[ragesnake.livejournal.com]

[All things considered Karkat's pretty good at memorization. Of course, he also doesn't socialize or neglect to tell close friends about dead parents in his spare time, because he doesn't give himself spare time. He's pretty much all classes, all the time. His homework is usually done before he goes to his next class.]

[It's pretty ridiculous, really.]

[Which is specifically one of many excuses he had for not wanting to bother with this stupid fucking dance. Jade was all about how much fun it would be, and how he totally had to go, and-- fuck that. On so many levels.]

[So here's Karkat, John, opening your door without consent, closing it again, and leaning against it, staring around the room before invading your space at your desk.]

Your. Sister. Is. Shithive, Egbert.

[thewindything.livejournal.com]

[Uh. Wait what was that. That didn't sound like Japan. John will look up and kind of ...blink stupidely at him. Why was-- huh?]

...Karkat?

[ragesnake.livejournal.com]

[Seethes for a minute.]

Yes, very good. I'm so proud of you for remembering my face and my tone of voice and what the fuck are you even doing here, aren't you some kind of social nutcase that loves people why are you even in your dorm right now I was just going to hide here.

[thewindything.livejournal.com]

Karkat I am pretty sure breaking and entering is against school code.

[He's still just kind of staring at you.]

[ragesnake.livejournal.com]

Do I honestly look like I care.

[Staring right back.] Still doesn't answer what you're doing here.

[thewindything.livejournal.com]

[Raises an eyebrow at you.]

It's my room?

[ragesnake.livejournal.com]

Yeah but there's some immense form of social human bullshittery going on out there, you're supposed to be being a social flutter creature. And you're not.

[And that concerns and annoys him, but he will never voice the former.]

[thewindything.livejournal.com]

I just didn't want to go. Why is that such a big deal?

[Oops, that might have come off defensive.]

[ragesnake.livejournal.com]

[Flicks his ears. That's odd.]

It's not, it's just uncharacteristically intelligent of you to not frolick about like an idiot amongst your idiot human friends and stay behind to study.

Which by the way your textbook is upside-down.

[thewindything.livejournal.com]

[Opens mouth to respond but snaps it shut again to look down at his textbook.]

...I read it better that way!

[ragesnake.livejournal.com]

[Raises an eyebrow. This is actually vaguely interesting.]

Like hell you do. What the fuck is wrong with you, Egbert? [Reaches out and flips his book closed, mostly just to see how John will react.]

[thewindything.livejournal.com]

Nothing is wrong!

[Frowns and looks down at it. He'll turn it right-side and open it back up again and flip through the pages. You know so he doesn't have to look at Karkat.]

[ragesnake.livejournal.com]

[Karkat stands there in perplexed silence for a while and just peers at John, waiting for him to be unnerved by the quiet.]

[thewindything.livejournal.com]

[Fuuuuuuu why are you such a good troll when he doesn't want you to beeeee.]

Why are you hiding from Jade?

[ragesnake.livejournal.com]

Because she wants to drag me to this dance and it's retarded. Why are you hiding in your room? [He didn't even miss a beat going from that answer to that question, whoops.]

[thewindything.livejournal.com]

Because I don't want to go to the stupid dance, either? I already said that.

[ragesnake.livejournal.com]

Except I hate social gatherings always and the only reason I would ever go to one would be to brutally murder someone present for my own sick twisted pleasure, and you are a mindnumbingly excitable happy social retard who would generally love this sort of thing.

There is something very wrong with this situation, Egbert, and for reasons I cannot begin to understand at the moment, other than perhaps in part to keep me distracted from the concept that your sister is probably hunting me like a furbeast, I want to know what.

[thewindything.livejournal.com]

[Dammit. Why did Karkat suddenly care enough to note his change in mood. This was the whole reason why he was in here to begin with.]

I don't want to talk about it. Which is kind of why I'm hiding in my room to begin with, okay?

[ragesnake.livejournal.com]

[He'd argue that it was more he was just aware of your mood because you were always the same so it was obvious when you weren't, but... That's because he's unwilling to admit that he gives a shit about anyone.]

...Fine. I'm still hiding in here. [He moves away from John's study area and sits against the wall.]

[thewindything.livejournal.com]

[Nods.]

[And now he will just kind of. Flip through the textbook. He is not really doing his homework. Uggh but now he has to look unbothered now that Karkat is in the room with him and FFFFFFFF.]

[ragesnake.livejournal.com]

[He sits there in silence for a while before he glances back over at John and just sort of watches him for a while, frowning.]

Egbert you are so completely shitty at hiding being in a mood it's almost pathetic. Seriously, what the fuck crawled up your nook and died?

[thewindything.livejournal.com]

[KJDKJFSLDJLSKG; DAMMIT KARKAT.]

[Thump. Facedesk.]



[And after a few minutes he looks up at him.]

I fucked up something really bad, okay?

[ragesnake.livejournal.com]

[Oh so your head is just as empty as Karkat thought it was, from the hollow sound of that-- wait no that is not the point here. He shifts and slowly stands up, wandering back over to the desk.]

You seem to excel at fucking somethings up, I'm not surprised. [Leans on the desk.] What's weird is the fact that you fucked up to a degree you noticed. So what'd you do?

[thewindything.livejournal.com]

[Just makes a sound like he's actually agreeing with him.]


I ...didn't tell someone something I really should have ...and they found out about it before I could tell them and make it right.

And now they hate me.

[ragesnake.livejournal.com]

[Cants his head to the side and considers him for a long moment.]

[Didn't tell someone something, they found out, now they hate him. He takes mental inventory of who John knows well enough to have withheld pertinent information from, and narrows it down pretty much to the trolls and the kids, and pauses for another moment.]

[Anything John knew about the trolls wouldn't piss them off enough for him to be concerned about it. So it had to be one of his own.]

[Jade had a huge mouth, and John had mentioned that they "found out about it before he could tell them". He squinted.]

You didn't tell Lalonde her human lusus was killed, did you.

[thewindything.livejournal.com]

[That's a visible flinch and also sort of a bewildered look up at Karkat.]

[HOW DID HE FIGURE IT OUT LIKE THAT HOLY CRAP.]

[But yeah that should give you your answer.]

[ragesnake.livejournal.com]

I'd probably be pissed at you too, in all honesty. [Just raises his eyebrows, seeing how far he can push this.]

[thewindything.livejournal.com]

I know. I should have told her. I tried, I just...

I couldn't, Karkat.

[Will kind of fold his arms on his desk and lay his head on them.]

Instead I wussed out and made everything horrible.

[ragesnake.livejournal.com]

You're looking for pity in the wrong person, Egbert. Telling someone the truth about that kind of thing will still hurt them, but for a fucking lot less time. At least you'd have been truthful. This way, you lied, and she was still told.

[He's not being very nice right now.]

[thewindything.livejournal.com]

[No, but John's okay with that.]

I'm not asking for pity. You wanted to know what happened so I told you.

[ragesnake.livejournal.com]

[Frowns, and takes an odd turn for kindness, reaching out to briefly clap John on the shoulder before folding his arms over his chest and leaning on the wall near the desk.]

If there's one thing humans seem to be stupidly prone to, it's forgiveness. She'll forgive you, even if it takes a while because Lalonde is one of the smarter humans I've met.

[thewindything.livejournal.com]

[That is a gesture he was not expecting! So he lifts his head a bit to glance back at him.]



[And he smiles the slightest bit.]

I hope so.

[ragesnake.livejournal.com]

[That's more like it.]

[He makes a noncommittal grunting sound, and just leans against the wall, closing his eyes over and possibly dozing standing up.]

[thewindything.livejournal.com]

[John will just kind of sit there thoughtfully.]

If I could just ...I don't know. Prove to her that I'm not a complete screw up maybe she'll talk to me again.

[ragesnake.livejournal.com]

You're probably better off letting her come to you. No doubt your attempt to make it better in the moment only made it worse, I doubt she'll appreciate your continued pestering.